Stop Worrying, Start Living

Hi Friends,

As I have recently moved out and started my college years, I can only sit and laugh at all the little things I spent so much time worrying about that really had a very, very small effect on me. Even if you are not very close to me you probably know that I am a worrier. I constantly over-think and worry about every little thing. I spent countless hours of the last four years worried about if I was in the right friend group, why I didn't have a boyfriend, if I had the perfect date to the dance, or if I was following the latest fashion trend, so to sum it all up I worry A LOT about what people think of me. Well I can honestly say it is not worth your time to worry about these things. It wasn't until this year that I really felt comfortable doing the things I really love. I have had a blog for four years. FOUR FREAKING YEARS and it took me until this year to not feel embarrassed to tell people about it. I think I always wanted to keep things more on the private side because once people read my blog it gave them a reason to judge me, and as much as I would like to pretend I was one of those people who just did not care what others thought of me, I am 100% not that person. I hate the idea of people talking about me when I am not around. I tried to keep so much of me hidden for so long and it is like now this little person is inside of me screaming to get out. I now feel confident that I can tell people what I think and my opinions on things. I feel okay telling people that I love musicals and I think I will always prefer a night in instead of going out and pretending to be someone I am not, and that took a really long time for me to accept. I was so scared that people wouldn't accept me because I personally chose some different things than a lot of my peers to be interested in. However, I have now learned that those things really don't matter. Do what you love. Do what you want to do. Being concerned of what someone else thinks holds you back not them.

I am not saying I am now one those people who just doesn't care at all what others think because I am far from that person, but now I am making a constant effort to stop worrying. Worrying is a complete waste of time. Don't spend your life worrying about it, spending your life living it. So if you want to dye your hair pink, do it. If you want to monogram everything in your room, do it. DO WHATEVER YOU WANT TO DO, not what your friends, teachers, parents, siblings, or anyone else says or does. You do you and I'll do me.

Until Next Time,

Morgan

P.S. This confidence didn't come overnight. However, with the right friends, you will learn it is a lot easier to be yourself and not worry so much. So here are some of the people that I will forever love because they allowed me to me, and I can never thank them enough for that.